Lucy Time

It's been pretty quiet around here lately. The past couple of weekends we have been sticking close to home, which has been nice considering how busy things had been at the end of the summer, and how busy they are bound to be once the holiday season kicks in.

Weekends are also my Lucy Time. Since I have gone back to work, it's been a bit difficult to adjust to not seeing her during her most active hours. I get a little bit of time in the morning, but that's pretty hectic as the four of us prepare for our day. Most days by the time I get home I have about 1-2 hours before she goes to bed, and that time is spent playing with her a little bit, but then winding her down for bedtime. It's nice to have that time after 8PM to get a few things done around the house or just relax, but sometimes I wish she stayed up a little longer. So the weekends (starting with Friday afternoons), Lucy is pretty much attached to my hip. I try to spend as much time with her as possible, while taking care of errands or other obligations as well.

This past week Lucy also started daycare, which for right now is her Auntie Marcey. It feels great to know that she is getting a lot of attention from someone I trust completely and who loves her so much, but it still marks that transition to someone besides Husband or I providing primary care for her. So again, the weekends I am diving back into her routine, discovering the new things she can do. Making the most of the time I have, and trying not to feel guilty when I need to get out of the house once in awhile and do something for me. The weekdays are about just maintaining, trying to stay on top of things enough to get through the week...and the weekends are living...and trying to catch up enough to start the week in a good place.

Such is life, you know? I have to say my transition to work has probably been done in the easiest possible way - first Husband was home with her, now she is with her aunt...so I should be at least a little more comfortable by the time "official" daycare kicks in. I know lots of women do this, but for me it is a little bit of a struggle right now to feel balanced, and I don't think that's really going to ever go away.

I am told this is called being a M-O-M. And that is one title I wouldn't change for the world.